Evolutions! Change is happening! Spring is here!
By Hollis Taylor
There is a hope that all of us grow, change, and evolve as time goes on. Each one of us has the personal responsibility to work internally with our emotions in order to live as a more peaceful and kind human being. We learn through all sorts of things including relationships of all kinds, life experiences, and simply maturing. As we evolve we make changes in our lives that better suit our new found understandings of ourselves, our community and our world at large. Evolution is a natural occurrence in nature including the entire planet as a whole. When we expect things to stay the same its like expecting the sun to never set or even rise. We all change and so does the world around us, in that we have hope.
I have experienced deep change in many ways through my 40 years of life on this planet in this lifetime. There was a time that I wanted things to stay relatively predictable, simply because it helps us be less shaken up when things happen out of our control. What shakes us, though? Is it the change or is it ourselves? Someone once said to me “Change is the only constant.” I meditated on this message for a long time and really thought about it. At the time he was an older transman who lived life as a man and I had just left my husband and father of my child after 15 years. His wisdom rang deep for me and I appreciated that statement more than anything else he ever did, other than simply being himself. My life has transitioned in many ways since then, simply because I applied that wisdom to my life. I am so grateful to have heard it and applied it – understanding that I would continue to change and so would everything around me.
Some people say “some things never change”. Often I am confused by this statement as things are only kept the same if you work really hard to keep it the same – in that I found boredom and monotony! Neither of these traits support happiness for me. Something I noticed about people that say this, they like things to never change and they often miss what has changed around them. Maybe they like monotony, predictability and the same thing day in and day out. Maybe its a perspective I don’t understand yet, but in my experience everything changes constantly. I used to wonder if I would seek predictability in my old age as there was some sort of correlation, especially noticed in my work with the elderly. I am 40yo and so grateful everything is still changing constantly. I am grateful to have evolved into who I am today and that things have changed around me.
What have I learned? Change does NOT have to be uncomfortable. Change can be like spring! We can welcome the melting of the snow, the extra rain for the plants, and the sprouts shooting from the earth. The young animals change the lives of their parents just as much as a young human child changes the life of an adult parent. Spring, many of us welcome change at this time. Is it because its predictable? We know when spring is coming, we look for it, hope for it, love it, celebrate it, and embrace it!
So what if we lived our lives knowing that things would change, constantly, like my transman elder told me years ago. What if we lived our daily lives and every moment knowing that it could change in the blink of an eye? Each moment would be loved, celebrated and embraced because we have no idea when it could change. Ok that works for the good times but what about when the darkness is so deep we can’t see the light. What about us that feel stuck and caught in the darkness? Remember, that will change too!
I am so grateful change is constant because I spent much of my childhood in a very dark place and grew up as adult thinking it would always be dark. I heard the message “things never change”. I spent years and years looking at my childhood wondering if I could ever come out of the dark coffin I felt nailed into. Doctors told me I couldn’t so I ate more cake. My mother assured me I was permanently damaged so I ate more candy. My friends told me how fucked up I was so I drank more alcohol. I heard messages around me constantly telling me that I was not good enough or even more interesting “too much”. I am too emotional, too unstable, too crazy, too liberal, too empowering, too strong, too soft, too loving, too peaceful and so goes the the reasons why I am too much! I heard all the horrible messages and stayed in a dark place for most of my life. At 40yo I am proud to say that even though I sometimes hear those dark messages I rarely stay in the darkness long. It shows in my body, I have lost over 100lbs. It shows in my emotional reactions, I haven’t cut in over 10 years. It shows in my spiritual life, I pray almost every day. Mind, Body, and Spirit from such a dark place and now into the light.
Now that I have worked so hard at myself, trust me it took me a good ten years to transform the darkness. Now I hear the dark messages about the world over and over again, especially from my peers and elders. They say how the young are “entitled” or messages about the apocalypse. We have horror stories about all sorts of dark things in our world from corrupted politics, murder, war, and other horrific stories. Its not hard to find simply watch or read the news. In one day you can easily find 100 new horrifying stories. I look around and many of their messages are true although many of them lack perspective.
The human race IS evolving, all the time, every moment and every day. Humans are changing and thank goodness or the outcome looks grim! Again, Change is the only constant. So yes indeed the young generation does come off as entitled but do you see what they are entitled to? They are entitled to human rights and a clean environment, and WE raised them that way! Thank goodness they know they are entitled! As we age we place our hope in our younger generation that maybe they can be part of the evolutionary process, and part of us knows that its inevitable! So today I do all I can to help the younger generation. Rather than judge and expect them to be something they are not, instead I remember their perspectives and the hope they hold on their shoulders. My son, my fellow third genders, hippie tribe, and homefree people are already changing how the world works! Look around at your homeless! Look at who’s festivals are massive and what are they doing there? Media is not your friend here, I strongly suggest connecting in person!
I know that I had tons of hope for my generation and at times I see what we have changed. The next generation and my grandchild have their work cut out for them. I am hoping that the same will ring true for the next 2 generations as did for my life. The darker the place we come from the brighter the light! When I seen that piece of wisdom written on a artistic creation at a creative yoga festival I knew, I knew at that moment that I was headed for the light. My light is blinding to some but only because they have been in the dark so long or they simply don’t know any better. Now I am living proof that even the worst of “cases” can recover and find truly bright light. I want this same theory to apply to our planet. Even though we are in a dark place now, understand that all things must change and evolve! As our culture evolves and we begin to become more and more aware of our connection to each other, the earth, and energies in our solar systems we can be assured that change is our only constant.
Happy Spring! Happy Evolutions! Happy Beltaine! Happy May Day! Happy Easter! My blessings and love to all people! I welcome all bright lights to step up and shine their brightest light! I share my light with all of you! Remember, sharing your light doesn’t reduce it – instead it makes the light grow brighter! Look outside nature is now reminding you that “change is the only constant” and that the “lightest things come from the darkest places”. Birthing, rebirthing, and evolving! Its spring! Change is here to stay!