The Divine Androgyne – We are all Andro!
By Hollis Taylor
I have learned there is a divine feminine and a divine masculine….and I have heard all about how we can embody either one. Often though I wonder about whats in between. As an androgyne is becomes hard to identify with either side. Sometimes I feel feminine and sometimes I feel masculine but most times I feel like something in between. Where does this leave me spiritually. Often I feel different, odd, and even special. Sometimes I feel like a high priest and then other days I feel like a student of the universe. One thing I am sure of, gender expression is oppressive. Inside we are all androgens or “trans” of some kind. Check out this video from a hero of mine, Ian Harvie.
Since I have experienced life as mostly a female bodied person I have plenty of examples of life as a female bodied person. I lived life as an adult entertainer and noticed that I didn’t really identify with my female body, therefore the reason I could so easily do sex work. Really it was like any other healing job like massage therapy or touch healing. I listened to their problems, help them find a release and feel less “weird” about their sexual expressions. As a female bodied person I feel like a healer but as if my body is simply a vessel.
My mind and soul are masculine. As if I was reborn from a totally cis gendered guy into a female body. In my exploration into my past lives I know I lived as a strong male for several lifetimes. Now as I move my masculine soul and mind through a female body I experience gender dysphoria. This is a condition often labeled on us gender benders that don’t lean to either side of the binary gender scales. Although my so called “gender dysphoria” was offered synthetic hormones to heal the wounds of our culture’s binary ways, I refuse treatment.
I live the life of a masculine body person, because I am a male impersonator. In hopes to bring positive messages about love and compassion to the stage I perform as a Drag King, Izzy Ahee. With a love for the art of Drag and a passion for gender activism I use the art as an expression of who I am. A gentleman, a creative soul, a loving compassionate guide to other kings and a generally sex positive guy. I love Drag and I love the magic in performing. I have used drag as an expression of my message yes but also as a transformative tool. I have transformed my so called “gender dysphoria” into a healthy outlet that inspires me to dance, get creative, and stay confident about my message. Drag, although dramatic at times, is a very special art just waiting for the other Androgynes of the world to step up with their positive message to the world. Although in this time in our culture I feel like they are oppressed and hiding.
My spiritual community can lift me up as an androgyne and say “Hey, they are both. There is nothing wrong here. Let’s respect their gender expression.” It seems my community “get it” as a whole idea. And when I say things like “Well my body is female yes, but my mind and soul are masculine” or “Its ok if you accidentally she me now, just he me later” or “I prefer you just refer to me as a person, which means I prefer if you find a way to not use pronouns with me.” As an Androgen I express myself as both masculine and feminine, and both are part of me. Having both genders is not easy and for sure it causes deep confusion and can leave a person feeling so “weird”. But I think the community that loves everyone, the spiritualists that dream of world peace, the lovers of the world can lift up Androgynes in a good way. I know that in the hearts of most people they can kind of “get it”. Or at least that is my goal here, in this column.
In my personal work I have concluded that I have big ideas about world peace and how if we lift each other up, we all win. I start with you DiversiTree readers!
So here my story begins. In this Special Edition from DiversiTree.org I will feature an article from a Divine Androgyne or myself, and our experience as gender benders. So if your a gender bender and want to share your story, here is the place. Please contact us at DiversiTree Email.
In many traditions there are perspectives about gender diversity. There is no reason that cannot expand into our new culture. A serious gender tradition here in America is Drag. Although you see it in other countries its biggest here in the USA. With RuPaul’s Drag Race gaining popularity you can wonder if the american public is finally ready for us Androgens to step into the spotlight. Except there is one thing, many of us have a message. Funny part about that, its mostly about loving everyone equally. Finding peace through understanding and compassion. You know stuff like that! So if your a gender bender and you got a message like that, please submit it to DiversiTree – We want to hear you!
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